slow me down
POSTED AT 04:33 PM

cruboy

it has been a while since i have written again... it seems that i am having a harder time finding a break to just write... i miss writing... so much could have been told, shared or introspected... or rant or rabble. 

i guess workload has been slowly increasing and somehow i can feel the full weight  on my shoulders already... i have been gradually feeling weak and exhausted.  i am  on a brink of collapse... somehow pride and love for work has kept me steady this  far off...

i need to slow down somehow... slow down to a stop... to smell the flowers and  enjoy the scenery... appreciate the things that i take for granted that is around  me... like friends, love ones, family and even perhaps myself.  things have been a blur lately and the sad thing is i am getting used to it... i am seeing things as melted colors blending together. things might just become blotches of incoherent pattern and shapes, indistinguishable hues, ambiguity and insignificance. i need to
slow down or miss my stop.

"opportunity is often difficult to recognize; we usually expect it to beckon us with beepers and billboards." -waward

i need to slow down somehow... slow down to a stop... to give right of way to other things passing across me... to see the opportunities that pass me by... like career, love and life.  i have been running fast in a one way street beating every red light that comes my way... it is not a race; i have realized... i will get there eventually where ever it is i am destined to go. i need to slowdown before i crash.

"rivers know this: there is no hurry. we shall get there someday." - aamilne

i need to slow down somehow... slow down to a stop... to refuel and replenish... to take care of myself, my spirit, my mind and body.  i have been going on at full throttle, close to over heating and massive engine failure. if i want to get far, i would have to take care of my vessel. i need to slow down before i break.

"remember the great adversity of art or anything else is a hurried life." -rjwaller

  

 "let's go hobbes... away... away from here."

Reading: the fionavar tapestry book three the darkest road -ggkay
Listening to: blue sky - hale
Watching: grey's anatomy season 2
Feeling: hastened