Entries for December, 2007
December 15th, 2007
no glitch POSTED AT 12:11 AM well i have been writing again... which i promised i would do a month back... christmas seasons has really been a roller coaster gone bad... so many deadlines to meet... submissions to do... presentation to prepare.... not to mention host the companies christmas party... i did volunteer for the last one... so i guess i should not complain. and after a week of lack of sleep thinking of cool games and gimmicks... the masquerade party ended with out a glitch... no technical difficulties... well maybe just one, but other than that... nothing major... and the way it looks everyone had a fun time... the games were received well... from the get to know you ice breaker bingo, to the disco trivia and to the finale the list game. the wonders of technology helped... the sounds system and audio visual were all synchronized in my laptop... but enough of that... i do not want to brag... i do like making big shows and productions... it seemed to be all high school again. staying late for the play rehearsals... and that little rush of excitement as the show starts. the surprise of the night was really the peers choice awards... we had a survey done and i was nominated to three... most athletic, friendliest and most interesting personality... i won the later... i do not know what that means, but who cares really. anyway the christmas week will be peaking next week, so i expect to be busy again unfortunately... but it would be the good kind... friends from abroad will be back... so i suppose that is something to look forward to. something to look forward to. merry chirstmas. Listening to: o holy night - josh groban Watching: naruto shipuuden Feeling: tired but satisfied 4 thought(s) that matters...
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December 19th, 2007
overhauling POSTED AT 07:26 PM i am putting myself under the microscope, a specimen of a care free spirit, the page of fire, the hamster knight in rusty armor, the penniless sitar player. i am not moved nor impressed, there seems to be a long trail of disappointments i have left behind. this year looks bland and colorless compared to the other years... nothing but grey skies... "i've arrived at this outermost edge of my life by my own actions. where i am is thoroughly unacceptable. therefore, i must stop doing what i've been doing." - akoller somehow i think i have cheated myself of a lot of things... like opportunity to change and improve, like time to spend chasing after my dreams and goals, like money spent on things i really want and deserve, like emotions i should truly express or feel. work and so many other things are what i have put up to this year. and i know that the new year is coming and resolutions are bound to come up again, but maybe i should skip on resolution and go straight to actions. i should focus on the word "new". reinvention seems passé if not difficult, perhaps all i really need is a tweak, here, there... ok, maybe overhauling... i don't think it’s a bad idea anyway. time to be tenacious and go get what i want and deserve, chase after my dreams and goals, change and improve and be free to express and feel again... to be alive, and maybe love again... i have led myself astray, and there won't be anybody to show the way, i do not know how to read the signs or stars. it is so difficult to be lost in a featureless and starless landscape, with nothing to make a landmark of. at least i know where i have been, the footprints can tell me that. i will walk through this, walk through to familiar grounds. "don't be too timid and squeamish about your actions. all life is an experiment. the more experiments you make the better." - rwemerson ... i will put myself in a dissecting pan... Reading: the holy grail, the history of a legend - richard barber Listening to: lightning seed - all i want Watching: avatar, the last air bender book 2 earth Feeling: contemplative |
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