Entries for February, 2008
February 1st, 2008
house syndrome POSTED AT 10:30 AM i have been watching the series house the past few weeks and though the show was entertaining, witty and informative, it had some bad side effects on me... like a bad medicine or something... hypochondria. n. or excessive health anxiety. fears or is convinced that he has a serious disease despite medical reassurance. i never liked the hospital environment, this is the primary reason i did not take up medicine even if i am intrigued and interested with it... (the other thing that turned me off being a doctor is the lengthy time to finish the course... i was concerned with my parent’s financials, so there... besides i am also squeamish with the gross stuff...) the hospital somehow makes me feel ill, like some weird paranoia... it must be the sterilized air... the smell of hospital, i dunno... but i feel sick or sicker when i am in one. nothing serious... i mean i could still regulate my shallow breathes and weird dizzy spells... i was confined once, for at least three days due to severe diarrhoea brought by food poisoning... i was on hospital gown and iv fluids on me... iv fluids was cool... i never remember ever getting thirsty with the iv fluids... but medicine were not cool when injected into the iv tube... i could feel the chemical going through my veins and somehow it hurts. unfortunately no sponge baths then... i guess i was not gravely ill or whatever... this was good anyway. i have been in an operating room once but nothing major, i had a bad cut in the arm before when i was a kid... it must have been traumatic for i only have selective memory of it... i had an epidural injection before for anti-rabies... but again i was a kid then so i do not remember much... i suppose these are the underlying reasons why i have hospital anxieties. fortunately i have never been in a cast... but i was heavily bandaged in my finger once a after getting a serious finger jam in a basketball game... no major ankle sprain. an eent poked my nose with a long telescope thing-a-jig and pumped it clean, i never inhaled and like really smell everything before... (i think having your nose vacuumed once in while is good)... i had a blood drawn out when i was miss diagnose of having dengue once... "be careful about reading health books. you may die of a misprint" - mtwain but it was nothing compared to what i felt after watching two season's of house. it was a whole new experience last week, i was having some health anxiety... there was an instance last weekend when i thought i was feeling everything was going wrong, i felt nauseous and dizzy... in fact i still have this weird afternoon dizzy spells. psychosomatic. adj. of or relating to a disorder having physical symptoms but originating from mental or emotional causes. relating to or concerned with the influence of the mind on the body, and the body on the mind, especially with respect to disease. differential diagnosis can be contagious... i was beginning to think of whatever i was going down with... i mean it could very well be neurological... or autoimmune... or parasites... or psychological... i used to read medical books my cousins and aunt when they used to live in our house when i am in the toilet (i had this philosophy to learn new things while taking a crap, a worthwhile shit, as I would coin it, anyway). so i am pretty well versed with medical terms and conditions. i suppose that makes me predisposed to health anxiety. damn... might pretty well be genetic. waaah "quit worrying about your health. it'll go away." - rorben Reading: the holy grail, the history of a legend - richard barber Listening to: handsomeboy modeling school - breakdown Watching: house season 4 Feeling: distressed 2 thought(s) that matters...
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