Entries for May, 2008
May 6th, 2008
summer aint helping POSTED AT 07:54 PM "o yellow eye, let me be sick with your heat, let me be feverish and frowning." - asexton it's that time of summer when the flu flourishes... been recovering from this dry cold a few weeks back and the scorching summer heat is not helping... been busy with so many work and sidelines lately, submissions every week... i'm burning out... and the scorching summer heat is not helping... and as much as I want to take a rest, i must persevere and toil... only because of the hope that there will be some reward in the end. there are so many things to do but i am slowly crossing out the list that is the more important thing i suppose. unfortunately health is top priority as of the moment so i suppose i have to take care of this one first... it has unfortunately been slowing me down since a few weeks back... i feel lethargic and slow... afternoon is like a dozer... i'm drinking coffee and i fall asleep in the middle of it. i need somebody to wake me up in this stupor of a life. on an other note... iron man the movie was a treat... it was rather coincidental to be reading the avengers ultimate a few months back, i guess that prepped me up for the movie. anyway i thought robert downey jr. did tony stark some justice. been playing bleach tcg on the side so the game seems to be catching fire, the scorching summer heat is helping. business wise summer has been generous, but there is always a catch... i have a been busy with some works of my own that i need to register a business, sigh... if only i can do all that leg work... the scorching summer heat is not helping... but i suppose i shouldn't been looking forward for the rainy seasons... Reading: nothing!? Listening to: always be my baby - david cook Watching: bleach season 5 Feeling: drained what's your thoughts?
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May 15th, 2008
revolutions and amputations POSTED AT 05:47 PM meanwhile in the office... there seems to be some sort of uprising, leaderships are questioned... it will certainly be ugly... "revolutions have never lightened the burden of tyranny: they have only shifted it to another shoulder." - gbshaw i would not want to join the bandwagon and storm the bastille... revolution is a bloody business. it cannot be helped however for i am in the thick of everything. i am part of the masses, i too am oppressed. but what would my role be in the heat of things, i certainly will not throw the first stone. i would not want to shout the first battle cry... i will not go charging into the pikes. revolution is a bloody business. i can feel the winds of change however and it is blowing harder by each passing day... this gale will become the storm that will sink the ship, with it the captain. ignoble and powerless captain, down into the bottom of the sea. i am by the shores as i see this happen with nothing but pity. what are my powers compared to the wrath of nature, the cursed wind and surging tide... nothing. but this is no revolution... the people have not willed this, perhaps not... but they sure did just let it happen... just bloody business. a healthy body with a rotting limb... bleeding slowly, there is no other way but to let go... it has been a medical practice that in order to save life sometimes we have to cut off the very limb that ails us... be it due to gangrene, massive injury, frostbite or arteriosclerosis. it is a painful but inevitably necessary procedure... life for a cost of a limb, in the long term is very much a bargain... "one-half of knowing what you want is knowing what you must give up before you get it." - showard it may sound gross to be using amputation as metaphor for letting go, but sometimes it is the kind of letting go that we under go... life for whatever that is dear to us... girlfriend, dreams, situations, opportunities, families, money... its anything or anyone... for surely we have made that kind of hard choice to give up something in order for us to really live. we have made sacrifices, limb after limb after limb. and the consequences are much easier to accept when we know the thing we are to give up however dear to us is the thing that ails us... and this is the reason why letting go is painful. we know the reason and there is no other choice... but to let go. Reading: the holy grail, the history of a legend - richard barber Listening to: elenor rigby - david cook Watching: american idol season 7 Feeling: thoughtful |
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