Entries for June, 2008
June 5th, 2008
home away POSTED AT 07:23 PM last week was definite something... i went back to my father's province to attend the wake of my grandmother, the progenitor of the cruel clan... it is a big family where my father belongs; fourteen siblings three from my grand father's first wife and 11 with my grand mother, my father being the eldest. in support of my estranged dad, i decided to go with my brother back to tiwi, albay. "for the whole world, without a native home, is nothing but a prison of larger room." - acowley i was very young when i last went back to my family's home province, i could hardly remember anything any more, well except for the magnificent view of mount mayon. my brother who was with me have never been there ever... my youngest brother who went ahead with my dad have been there more than a couple of times, and is quite familiar with the place already and is pretty much close with my cousins who are about his age anyway.  like any other province tiwi, is a quiet town, with a decent touch of modernity. roads are wide and the canals are crystal clear water straight from the mountain springs. the sea breeze is cooling the otherwise sun kissed town. it is perfect, tall mountain ranges, a beautiful looking volcano, rice fields as far as the eyes can see and the pacific ocean just walking distance away. i am kind of saddened as to how could i have not possibly came back for this... family affairs it seems... i never would have thought that the cruel and claudilla's have some colorful town history. apparently my grandfather's ancestor have been some big town politician, one of which was a provincial judge... the claudilla's of my grandmother were talented performers of bodaville's and theater arts... my grand mother was once known to be a talented singer... another famous cruel was a parish priest of tiwi church, i'm not exactly sure how, but he does have a statue in front of the church... there is even a street just beside the municipal hall. i would never have known anything of it if i had not come.
there are many other interesting places to go to... but i had only the chance to go to the geothermal plant, the hot spring resorts and mount mayon... i suppose that had to do with having only three days to spend... but this may be a start... at least most of my cousins are old enough to be tour guides and all. "never weather-beaten sail more willing bent to shore." - tcampion it crossed my mind to actually maybe some time in the future to get a place there. the place is definitely something... ps... manage to be squad one captain from the recent regionals. cool way to end a great weekend so it seems. “Bansho issai kaijin to nase!” (All things of this world, turn to ashes!) Reading: nothing still... Listening to: no air - jordin sparks & chris brown Watching: csi season 8 Feeling: relaxed 1 thought(s) that matters...
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June 10th, 2008
as certain as... POSTED AT 06:29 PM an aunt have just passed away, my cousin glenda's mother, oldest sister of my mother suffered a massive stroke that left her in coma for a week until her body just failed. it is my cousin's turn to go back to the province, she's a dermatologist who stay with us at home, who occasionally give us some facial treatment for free. a good friend said death in the family comes in three... so that makes it two now... "a punishment to some, to some a gift, and to many a favor." - seneca i am sick again, another kind of cold and cough... its been harder to stay healthy lately, probably due to work and play and me wanting to do a lot of things... sigh... so many things to do, so many places to go, so many people to meet and be with, so many... so many. all of equal importance, all with equal urgency... i suppose god made life so... just to make it so much sweeter or bitter or whatever taste it gives. it sort of reminded me of the last scene in "meet joe black"... [joe and bill are watching the fireworks above the party before they depart] bill: it is hard to let go, isn't it? joe black: "yes it is, bill." bill: what can I tell you. that's life. how ironic, death learning something about life... so easy to take, so hard to let go. i don't want to be fatalistic, but sometimes i am visited by thoughts of death and the fear of not being, i kind of thinking if i were to be a soul that i would missing living... even with all the drudgery and sham, the imperfection and the suffering... i have grown to love all of it. i suppose this is the reason why i am determined to get well again... just maybe to enjoy life a bit more... enjoy life a bit more... have to keep your body running for work. since i have been working a little bit more, doing my own moonlighting jobs here and there, it has somehow been growing steadily... not that i am complaining (too much that is), the company i have been working with have requested that i should start issuing receipts... for their tax or whatever... anyway bottom-line is, i have to register as a self-proprietor, declare income, issue receipts and pay taxes. i think i have paid my dues but i suppose this is now way too much hassle. at any rate, i wont be able to get my retention pay if i don't come up my own official bir receipts. "never before have so many been taken for so much and left with so little." - van panopoulus i know the value of taxes, and i am very much willing to pay them... but seeing all the corruptions and the scam dealings going on in the government just make me not believe in it... how ironic that the very system that will make every thing better for the citizens is the very burden that drives them poor. Reading: nothing still.... Listening to: at the stars - better than ezra Watching: my sassy girl (pinoy dubbed) Feeling: sick |
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