long weekends and rivalries
POSTED AT 03:13 PM

cruboy

that was a much needed long weekend... woot... work has been burning me out but at least now things seems to be settling down, well until something stirs it up again (which happens often).  i don't think i had much rest over the weekend but at least there was no work to think about... ok, maybe not for my weekend job... hehehe...

what has been happening... well not much really... life has revolved around work and hobbies. been engrossed with playing bleach the card game..., which so far captured the flavor and fun of the anime series. after being a long-standing narutard, i am now well into being a bleach fanatic. the gaming community has become bigger than expected and competition is picking up... and i like that. 

well even if it is late, i really had to write about it, anyway... batman: the dark knight was great... the late heath ledger's joker made jack nicholson's joker lame and liam neeson's raz al ghul boring... or for any other batman villain or any other super villain combined... definitely the villain of the 21st century... batman and joker: that is some serious rivalry.

i have been into some long-standing friendly rivalry, some of which has gone way back high school... there were darwin and andrew whose brilliance and intellect that i admire have pushed me to academic excellence even i thought could i could never achieve.  then there were trick, jay, chris and epoy on the hard court every thursday playing basketball, whose skills i envied that inspired me to be as athletic and play with everything i have... win or lose.  now there's king, mario, mon and edge in dota or bleach or whatever game for that matter... point is i have always put myself up against another to push me to be better... and somehow the more i lose... the more i learn... and in the end, i win either way.

in every competition, there will always be a winner and sadly there will always have to be the losers. unfortunately there is no fun in losing, but losing is not to be taken as sadness or despair either. it just means that more hard work is to be done. if you take losing this way, you have just discovered what essentially is the key to being a great gamer.

losing teaches humility... in the competitive world you will encounter people, who by our biased reasoning, are deceivingly more capable, talented, experienced or whatever.  appearances can fool our judgment and hubris can blind our reasoning. we will not realize this until we are humbled by our defeat. the way to winning is to respect our opponents and to never treat them lightly.

losing teaches discipline... if you desire to win then losing should be made to motivate you to practice... practice makes perfect... but to practice is to instil discipline... the driving will power to do something over and over and over until it becomes like breathing.  the way to winning is to be calm and collected as if you have done so countless of times.

losing teaches creativity... often there are many solutions to a particular problem, and one of which will always best suit. working around the problem with only the means you can do or afford is being creative, it is always good to come up with strategies and battle plan. quickness of wit and sharp intuition are by-products of creativity. the way to winning is to outwit your opponent and even yourself.

“why do we fall, bruce? so we can learn to pick ourselves up.” - dr. wayne

Reading: just finished harry potter and the deathly hollows
Listening to: praceps transito spatium, music from the x-files
Watching: house season four
Feeling: calm

lost and finding
POSTED AT 07:12 PM

cruboy

"praising what is lost makes the remembrance dear." -wshakespeare

there is this old early 90's tv show... eerie indiana, it was like twilight zone meets wonder years or something, anyway it was about these two brothers who happen to get into trouble retrieving these trinkets or whatever from a shop that happens to be cursed or something... anyway that was what i remember of it, but the one particular episode was when they stumbled upon this twilight zone like place where everything that everyone lost was there...

everything that everyone lost was there... would have been fantastic to be able to actually visit the place... i have lost a lot of things already and it would be great to get them back... that lego piece i lost which was one of the pair that made the design cool, my college id (well, actually dinti was the one who lost it), or my old high school wallet with my mother's grad pic, or i don't know... maybe my innocence, first love or whatever else i have lost along the way.  it would be good to get them back. 

it is kind of hard for me to understand the concept of losing whatever... i mean the rationale behind it or something... ok, maybe its good to lose a bad habit now and again, but that which makes you happy or well gone... how can you actually become comeplete if you are destined to lose something.  how could i be who i am, if i have lost something along the way... wouldn't it be less of me in a way... it's like defining me with something that is not there anymore.  anyway, i think i'm being stupid here... i suppose death as a concept is much easier to accept than something that just vanished out of existence.

i guess it can not be denied that we are defined by not just what we have but what we had... what we are and what we are not anymore... reflecting about it, my life would not have been the same if somethings did not get lost along the way... it is somehow destined... and natural. i suppose it is life's way of telling us how important somethings are... when we lose them and miss them now and then...  and of course there is that hope... that sublime determination somewhere in our mind or heart that someday somehow we will find what was lost again...

and maybe hold on to them a little longer than before.

"things that are not at all, are never lost." - cmarlowe

Reading: no time to read
Listening to: stop and stare - one republic
Watching: avater: the legend of aang book 3
Feeling: bouncy